please help me find this book!?
Please! I can't remember the name, author, character names, cover or anything else!
Its about this 'tough girl' who parties alot and doesn't even like her friends who falls in love with this college guy. At the end you find out that the girl accidently killed her mom in a car crash, so the girl doesn't drive anymore. She hates her father, and one even in the book is when she destroys all his books, which he loves. I think it takes place in Europe, by the way they talk, but i'm not sure
PLEASE HELP. I am going crazy trying to find it!
Update:its not cherub 
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"After the Wreck, I Picked Myself Up, Spread My Wings, and Flew Away" by Joyce Carol Oates?
http://www.amazon.com/After-Wreck-Picked-Myself-Sp...
"Up–Jenna Abbott, 15, is struggling to come to terms with the car accident that killed her mother and nearly took her own life as well. Formerly athletic and smart, she suddenly finds herself unable to concentrate or communicate with anyone. She is broken in both body and spirit and desperate to escape into the blue, which is how she remembers the drug-induced haze immediately after the accident. Not wanting anything to do with her father and his new family in California, she moves to New Hampshire to live with her aunt and uncle, and begins looking for ways to escape. She steals OxyContin from her uncle's medicine cabinet and becomes friends with Trina, who is dealing with her own substance-abuse problems. It takes two near-disasters for Jenna to tentatively open up to her classmate Crow and face her fears and grief. Oates is at her best telling the stories of teenage girls dealing with internal trauma and outside pressures. Jenna's pain at losing the only person truly close to her and the isolation she creates for herself are poignantly drawn. Her understanding that her choices are not what her mother would want for her is especially telling and may speak to teens in comparable situations."
cherub